Simply Thinking....

(Sigh) yea its been one of those days....nothing major happened, it just amazes me sometimes how vain and judgmental people can be. How is it that "family" can treat you a different way simply based on aesthetics...wow...it saddens me that those we call our crutch or depend on, are so shaky in the simple act of treating you the same way. Consistency is the key, now I know one may say how can you expect from people what you yourself do not adhere to....well if that makes me a hypocrite....so be it....I AM COMPLEX....I do things, for no other reason than just because I felt like it. Better yet because I can, expressing myself in a world whom does not understand me....conversing with "friends" with nothing to talk about because inside I do not understand myself sometimes...I am not even ashamed to say that occasionally I do not know why I do certain things, or why words seem to be the only confusion in my life but yet its the only means of communication. Simply because of interpretation...how one perceives, period. The world is not black and white...the hue is gray in different contrasts, why you say?? I actually have no clue, but is that not the most beautiful part...to be so in charge...that we give our power of choice to another. Hmmm.....interesting....I guess that's what love is...maybe...maybe not....but will one ever truly know. A man that knows something, knows that he knows nothing at all only what he has learned from someone else. From our birth we have all been "programmed" to perceive the world in a certain light....even the simple act of learning our colors, shapes, and objects...we could never look at a tree as a baby and automatically know what it is, without of course someone telling the story of what it is who point and stare at. (Pointing at life) now I wish someone could tell me what this is...someone tell me....difficult huh?

No purpose really....just simply thinking....

Smile, though your heart is aching, smile,
Even though it's breaking
When there are clouds, in the sky you'll get by
If you smile, through all fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face, with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness

_Janelle Monae_

This is a beautiful song by a very underrated neo-soul artist. Just remember whatever you are going through life only gets what you give.

Time are Tough

Have you ever heard of the saying, that when it rains it pours?? Well, this is being proven time and time again. But I have no regrets...I'm starting to realize that rain does not mean that you drown...it only signifies your growth. So let me grow. All I need now is a little bit of sunshine (looking up)....waiting....